Beauty In Sadness

Waking up in loneliness

Make me feel this emptiness

I don't know how to replace this sadness

Cause there's no sign for any happiness.

Glad to find a mirror

Facing yourself in horror

But I'm still in sorrow

And don't know if I'll be fine tomorrow.

Faking a smile in people

Can't still hide what I'm feeling inside

For it only shows how weak I am

And yet I don't want to break down in them.

This is the beauty in sadness

You keep on telling that you're fine

But your mind is really somewhere else

And you just don't want to bother your friends.

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I made this poem on June 15, 2012 but I publish it only today cause I thought I lost my draft.. That day is very significant to me and memorable one! hope that you'll like this one..

Mistaken One

I always believe that he's on my side,

That whatever happens he'll hide

But where is he now?

Does it mean everything's just a lie?

Its so hard to live without him

Each day is a nightmare for me

Remember, we promised on each other

The last time he spent with me

A matter of seconds and then he was gone

Without letting me know the real reason

He left me hanging on.

Years later, I saw him again

Same face he's wearing on

But another Girl making him to smile

And I was hurt for a while.

He saw me at the corner of his eyes

So quickly, I dropped a fake smile.

Then, he held the girl's hand

and took a walk towards me.

No wonder she's a replacement of me

But he never said anything about her

Except that he mentioned her name

To think that they're on our favorite restaurant.

I was about to leave when he grabbed me

Begged for me to stay

The girl slapped him right away

And I told him to run after her.

He refused to listen to what I've said

So I slapped him hard

But he asked me one thing

And that's to reason out why I left.

Nothing's ever gonna change

Even if he'll know everything

Cause what matters most is NOW

We've to live with it whether we like it or not.

Maybe, we were both young at that time

So we thought we're perfect match

But when I decided to look at the other side,

I realized that it's not love but Mistaken One.

After HIGH

Memories are flushing back as if it was just yesterday. It made me cry everytime I remember I can't be with them anymore. Thinking we had been for almost 4 years of our lives and bonded as close as we are. I miss them every time I think of those days we had shared together. Maybe, I won't easily recognize them in the future but in my memories, their faces remain smiling. They are the people who completed my high school days which I thought won't be interesting. But when I try to go back and think of classmates, I couldn't help but to smile and realize that everything will just be funny to remember. Those days, we are arguing and fighting on each other are really terribly fun. We are few in the class and large number goes to girls. Of course, I won't forget the four boys in the classroom for four years in high. Yes, we are unique and each of us is different. The 18 girls, including me are so amazing. We had on each other when our teachers were challenging what can a science class do and prove to them why we are deserving to be cream of the top. Silly, but we  took it seriously yet we appeared to be relaxed. We didn't show them that we're afraid of and found it hard to be under pressured everyday. But that's just past and we surpassed and defeat all odds. It's good to reminisce the past after HIGH which lead me to realization that it's been a wonderful and meaningful journey of my life.

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I will never forget those silly and childish days with them. "Cause if one day you'll wake up and you find you're missing me....--The Man Who can't be Moved"

Lost Love

Never thought that we'll end it here
Which I thought will be my greatest fear
For I have fallen for you, my dear
But you just said it so clear.

Thought that Love will always be enough
Seems like it's very tough fight
Since it's now gone and fade away
What's left is just your shadow 

We were almost there
When you said goodbye
Now, Lost love is going nowhere
But I'm still hoping it's gonna find its way back.

Maybe, what should I do is move on
Learn to live like before without you
I hope that I could get my heart back
Cause it's bleeding and lost with my Love.

Friends

Funny how it all started. Friendship began to invade in each of us. All I know is that we shared the same laughter everytime we collide. Different personality. Different values in life yet we manage to ride on each other's company. Before I forget, yeah, we are now in college. We're now on the turning point of our life where we are exposed at large number of groups than it's usual. It has been a short journey for us but it is full of memories as we are about to close one door and open another one step closer to our dreams. We had it all from happy to sad and awkward moments of everyone in the group. There we had shoulders to cry on and to lean on when we had difficulties in different aspects. We shared ideas, suggestions, opinion, and advices to those persons who needed them. When someone got into trouble, there were we who were ready to back- up and support our friend. Of course, we're not the perfect group where everyone excel or great in doing  every task we had. Meaning to say, we are also experiencing problems from within . We couldn't avoid fighting on each other but we all know how to forget and forgive at the end of the day. Days may have passed and we are no longer compact as we ought to be but we all know that we're still bounded together and it's built inside our hearts. We may seem to have new friends around the vicinity but the memories we had shared will always be part of our life and serve as a mark of our bounded CIRCLE ForEVER!

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This is how we are embracing the life and how we are growing progressively as individuals. May GOD Always be above for abundant blessings and showering His Love for us! See you guys at next semester.. "I wanna be Forever YOUNG...."